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*Yawns*

I've been up since five a.m. (after going to bed at one) because my rp buddy has to leave to go to some thing. Only she didn't ever get on. I could go back to bed I suppose, but that would mean giving up internet time, and while I'm still using dial-up I'm rather reluctant to do so.

I will be getting DSL soon! As soon as this month's phone bill comes in, in fact, so that I'll have a whole month in which to set aside the first month's cost.

I think I'm going to see about making another header pic that's set at the original width of this layout. I don't like everything being all scrunched together. It makes me feel claustrophobic, which I am not. Only when I'm trapped in a very confined space with no room to move my arms and legs in case I have to get out. Not sure where that one came from. I can sit in a car all day long, loll about in an elevator, and even go spelunking! I just can't be restrained.

The last time my niece and nephew were over, they decided I'd make a good climbing post, and then a good trampoline, and I panicked when they had me trapped between the couch and the coffee table. Ordinarily, I can sit down there, lay down, just fine. But when it seemed like I wasn't going to be able to get up, it freaked me out.

I'm really tempted to go see a hypnotist, see if I have any repressed memories or something. Especially since everyone remembers bad things that happened during the time I was small, but I don't.

I also have this great need to see everything all happy and perfect, and have a hard time reading angst, even though I enjoy it.

M.A.

Who should probably go ahead and go back to sleep for an hour or two...