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I need help...

I've tried to do it by myself, but I just can't. Nobody takes me seriously around here. Working at home, writing, it's not a real job. I can't just sit here and map out my hours and tell them not to bug me because I'm working, because it's not my house. I can't tell them what to do and I'm a loser. A major loser, unless I have money with which to buy my mom's cigarettes.

And she's the one who told me to start writing, that she'd support me one hundred percent. Guess the cigs are more important than I am.

And then, even when I had a real job, I was still a loser, because my room was a mess. Never mind that I kept the den and the kitchen clean. My room wasn't clean so I was a horrible terrible evil person.

And now, because I don't want to take my brother to Wal-mart today, I'm evil, just because I want to take him when he's got gas money. Because otherwise, we'll be stuck out on the road somewhere and I'll never see the so called money.

I've been looking for jobs that might pay for relocation, at least a bus or plane ticket, but so far I've come up empty. I'm not very good at coming up with searches that yield good results, because I can't think of all the different variations that might be needed.


You know what? I'll do anything at this point. I don't care. I just have to get away from here.

ETA: I should really resist updating when I'm in a bad mood. Thanks all of you who commented *big hugs*; you guys have really made my day.

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generouscruelty
Dec. 20th, 2005 04:06 pm (UTC)
Forgot something.

::hug::
murdocsangel
Dec. 21st, 2005 09:08 am (UTC)
Thanks for the link and the hug :) *hugs back*

I actually hadn't tried Monster. Every other job site out there, but not Monster.
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murdocsangel
Dec. 21st, 2005 09:08 am (UTC)
LOL! Poor little kid. Those two boys should be put away for life :)

Thanks :)
missyvortexdv
Dec. 20th, 2005 05:28 pm (UTC)
Awww...!

You'll sort something out. I know you will.

In the meantime {{{hugs}}}
murdocsangel
Dec. 21st, 2005 09:09 am (UTC)
*hugs back*

Thanks :)
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